Thursday, October 19, 2006
Too many coincidences
I think God is juz playing a big fat joke on me. I haven't seen him for abt half a year already. Yet it has to let me see him (& his car) twice within a week. With his car loaded with SIA gals some more. Do we really happen to go same places all the time? It was at Cineleisure and Changi V. Then, he came to view me on Friendster to see how pathetic my life is right now. This is not the worst.I was going home today, on bus 96 with Yu Fen. And so happened, Ken & Elaine's wedding car gotta turn out at Clementi junction. The 2-door red Getz is plainly unmistakable and upon seeing Steph juz confirms it all. It wouldn't be so bad if i didn't noe he (another person) was one of the bestman. I juz felt a pang. (Sorry Yu fen if i seemed to be tuned out after tat). This is great. Juz great. Blame it on fate...
Y must i constantly be reminded when all i'm trying to do is to let go? Tell me how am I supposed get over things when God juz loves pulling tricks on me. I feel like such a fool. I wish i could stop thinking and push everything to the back of my mind. Pls dun play such pranks on me anymore. I would greatly appreciate it. Thanks, God.
Joey was asking me regarding r/s today while we were at the 'backyard' during lecture break. I juz told her everything is normal. All my frenz r sick of hearing abt it already, so am i sick of talking abt it. Even Eugene can predict wat i'm up to. So i think acting normal, even putting on a brave front is the best way out. Probably it might even convince myself that everything is alright? (Yah rite. Who am I kidding?) Arrghh...
I think S'pore is far too small. If there's an opportunity to work overseas in future, I would definitely consider. In the past, I juz wanna stay in S'pore and be close to my family. Right now, I think I need a really long break away frm familiar places and things. Perhaps I should apply for a student exchange program as well or try for an internship which will bring me abroad?
Anyway, I got myself a pair of cloth-studded ear rings and a Giorgio Armani sling bag (it's genuine, mind u) for my bro at the Biz Bazaar:
Flowery...
I think I should be his fashion consultant...
Here's wat I had emailed the irritating the Econ tutor:
And his reply:
WTF??? Wat's the point of chatting sia? It won't change the way things are anyway. For those who dunno me well, I'm very vocal when it comes to issues like these...
++ MarryMango at 2:49 PM.
