Sunday, December 31, 2006
Last day of 2006
Then... Happy New Year!
Eugene was asking me why I ain't out. He tot I was kidding abt staying home. Lol... Guess wat was the reply of my last sentence? (Screw him? Haha... No lah that wasn't wat i said.)
Thinking back my other years of New Year (since millenium), I have spent them at Orchard, the beach, Metropole, Gotham Penthouse and Marina Mandarin. For once, I have decided to spend it at home. Pathetic? Haa... I only feel calm and rational now. I noe I'm not ready to face the world of happy couples out there. So here I am, healing my heart, picking up the broken pieces... Was reading Xiaxue's blog the other day abt how Christmas is overrated. I tot that it was juz her eating sour grapes cos her bf is far away in Texas or something. Right now, it's my turn to say that New Year countdown is overrated. Wat's the whole point of ushering in a new year with total strangers?
Been pondering over many things. Gotta say I applaud myself for reaching such a decision. Feeling slightly happy in fact, that I could think in such a way. I dun need this trip down the memory lane. Am I one to be defeated so easily? I certainly dun think so. Wat happened to the happy-go-lucky Linda that my frenz used to know me as? I must definitely revert back to the old me. U used to ask me whether I meant it when I say I wish we nv met. Yes, now i can safely say that I seriously wish WE nv knew each other. Dun get me wrong, I'm grateful for all that U have done for me. But it would have been better if we didn't noe each other and landed in this state. And U used to ask me how come I nv mention U in my blog. Now, I talk abt u so much but from such a different angle that I bet you wouldn't like. Certainly, many things have changed within the span of few days or weeks. Dun worry, I'll definitely survive w/o U. U reinforce the phrase that 'No one is indispensible in this world' (even in the non-working region). U reminded me once again that there's no such thing as 'forever'...
To U: Please fuck off from my life if U cannot be the one to bring me happiness. I dun need u lurking around like a shadow, dropping me a few sms everyday. At the end of it all, U still aren't there for me. I would like to resume my life from b4 I met U. Thanks..
To all my frenz out there: Thanks for all the concern. Yup, it's not the end of the world. Dun worry, I wun give up on myself. Life does go on...
And to the One up there, please erase my memories at the stroke of midnight. I would do my part by erasing traces of U too. 2007 is a new beginning...
++ MarryMango at 8:06 PM.
Saturday, December 30, 2006
East Coast
Went cycling at ECP with Jason today. We couldn't decide where to go and wanted to go somewhere that we dun have to spend much money. So we think that ECP is the best choice.
Our twin bike. Jason's memorable first time. Lol... Juz kidding...
My fav haunt - Bedok Jetty esp when I'm down.
The sun was freaking hot...
Wanted to take pic of the kite. It's been such a long time since I flew a kite. Caught Jason acting cool as well...
They have a sand castle building section now. It's really majestic...
Beautiful Quote
Mayb I might try one day? Looks fun...
Overall, it was a fun outing. Thanks mate. Let's hope that our same wishes could come thru one fine day...
*I miss Zavier... and someone. Missing a person could be both sweet and bitter...*
I did succumb to temptation afterall... :(
++ MarryMango at 9:57 PM.
Friday, December 29, 2006
My injured niece
Yup this is my niece who broke her arm while cycling. She's back home already. Visited her today. Been a long time since I drove. (Dad was saying he could drink on CNY cos I'll take the wheels. Trust him to think so far ahead.) Good thing she said it wasn't painful nor was the bandage itchy anymore. Bet she'll recover in no time. We kept teasing her for telling the doc "Doc, u must fixed back my bone ok?" Lol... She's damn cute. She's very good at talking and noe Bahasa Indonesia too. Haha...
Sorry I couldn't meet u for dinner, Keith. Everytime U r free but I'm not and vice versa. Let's hope that there's a day when we could finally meet up for a meal.
Shit!! I couldn't get my 2 finance modules. Prob should have taken IA with U, Joey. And yup I could pass u my MS notes. Most prob we'll ballot for APB tutorial slots on Fri lor. Sian 1/2 I gonna go appeal...
++ MarryMango at 10:39 PM.
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Power of Love
Was chatting with Adrian over msn today and I happened to ask y he would wanna be a vegetarian. I teased him tat must be he ate too much meat and so scared of them already. Initially, he told me that he dreamt that the animals wanted to eat him up which is damn funny lah. Later, he told me the true reason was for his gf. His gf has diabetes but she likes sweet food a lot. Hence, he wanted to show her that a normal person could abstain frm a certain food (for instance, it was meat for him). All the more she could do it as well. What a great form of encouragement! He's been with his gf for 3 years and thus a vegetarian for 3 years as well. Awww... Isn't that so sweet? Really amazes me what LOVE can make ppl do for others at times... Ok so true love still exists...Envious of so many other couples. How come such happy and sweet stuffs nv happen to me? Ok mayb they did but I failed to appreciate then. But I ain't gonna allow myself to be fooled by them in future either. Gals, dun think that a guy is truly good when he is nice to u for a certain period of time. Time does show the true color of human beings...
I think I'm suffering frm insommnia. Such a nice weather to sleep in and yet I couldn't even fall asleep. Last nite was the best to sleep though. Liquor really does help. Thanks for ur company, Jem. This guy has nv ever gotten a grade lower than B-. Not surprising lah, he got 2nd upper class anyway. Was really feeling fucking down. Wanted to buy *** but Jem said I might get addicted bk again. Haiz... See what a failure I am...
Anyway, here are some interesting extracts of my conversation with Eugene & Adrian:
Interesting... Recalled that I was telling him I got a bf few days ago only... And right now, I am so damn free to date. Should shout at the top my lung "I am freaking single now!" right? Crazy... Yes, think I'm going beserk... I definitely need to get out of the house soon. Otherwise, I may juz rot...
How true is that, Adrian... So true... He was saying single also not bad, got many guys who will attack u like bees. I am juz so sick of all these dating games...
Was on the phone with Keith this evening. He also said wanna intro me his fren 'Collin' who has everything that I would wish for. So what if he drove Lancer too. Lol... Jem is enough of a reminder. I'm not tat desperate for guys, people. In fact, I think it's time that I turn the table around. Thanks for the offers nevertheless.
P/S: Should have scratched that Lancer or at least left some prints the other time at CV and Cine. Shawn's car was damaged already anyway. Wasted... Kindly pay up the $2k loan b4 U even think of getting any Fair Lady since tat amt is peanuts to u...
++ MarryMango at 6:35 PM.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Only got myself to blame
Amazingly, I have been fucking awake for the entire night up till now. Juz lying in bed, thinking to myself. Mainly juz self-pity, I guess. Y are all these things happening simultaneously? When one is down with luck, every fucking shit seems to be thrown your way. (To YF: U r not the worst-off person in this world. I am more miserable.)"Should have seen this coming. Should have read the sign. Should have known... that this is over..." These few phrases frm a song seem really apt now. Can't rem the title of the song though. All the sad songs juz come swimming into my mind right now.
I think I have been really naive again to land myself in such a situation all over again. Y had I let my guards down and didn't put up any defence? When I tot I was ready, U became the opposite instead. It wasn't easy for me to put my heart into another r/s. Y had I allow this to happen AGAIN? Well, I only have myself to blame. I juz convinced myself that it would be diff this time round and that HE is diff frm tat bastard. Guess it is better to stereotype afterall. I failed to protect my fragile little heart and I could hear it shattering all over the floor. Had illusions of happier images. Somehow, things dun always go my way. It hurts ALOT to fall from such a height. What was I thinking man? False hope is the most terrifying thing of all. I noe someone is gloating over this now. (Not referring to U. Damn it).
I hate myself. I'm not worthy of love. Dun give me the crap that I should love myself b4 anyone else can love me. Lost myself time and time again. My dignity, it isn't even worth a cent now. Yup, I brought all these upon myself. Told myself that no man is worth my tears. If a man causes u to drop tears, then he isn't worthy of your love. Yet, I fell for it so many freaking times...
It's too late, Eugene. U told me not to let history repeats itself. Believe me, I tried. But things still happen... for a reason i guess. I'm not destined to have good fortune.
Still the same old question (only directed at diff person): Where were U when I needed U most? People juz tend not to be there when I'm at my lowest points of life. Looking at the brighter side, I guess it juz moulds me to be a stronger person...
I wish someone could tell me that all this is a nightmare and I'll wake up in time. But no, it's impossible to have nightmare when u haven even fall asleep. It's better to face up to reality, yes... And i am right, 2006 is a shitty year afterall. Ok enough of all the bitterness. Nothing's gonna change.
And at other times, I wish I can be a little gal all over again and crawl back into my mother's arms for comfort. But it'll nv happen cos I was nv close to my mom. So it's juz me alone, snuggling against my cushions and pillows for warmth instead...
++ MarryMango at 12:59 PM.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
So screwed
Like I said before, I'm so screwed up. I seriously flopped this semester. Big time. Can't believe I actually failed a subject in my life. Now I got 10 more subjects to clear b4 I can graduate instead of the initial 9. Think I should be glad that I was exempted frm Financial Accounting right from the beginning then. Otherwise, I would have to stay another sem longer. *sigh* Y did I go take the stupid Gene and language. Should have known those 2 are goners right frm the start.Fuck Gene.
Fuck Language.
I hate u...
My mom was surprised that I wasn't satisfied with my results. She understands that those 2 fucking modules are not my forte so it was reasonable to do badly in them. She said at least I still got decent results for my biz mods. Think I was more surprised to hear this coming frm my mom. She has always been the more demanding one. Guess she has become more understanding after I came into Uni which was her wish afterall. Am I the one expecting and demanding more instead? Should I juz cut myself some slack? I juz couldn't believe I could do so badly in my life ever. But well, it has shown me the contrary. Perhaps it's time to see myself in a different light...
++ MarryMango at 7:36 PM.
Monday, December 25, 2006
Merry Christmas!
I have watched 'The Holiday' too (directed more at YF). Went Vivo to catch the mid nite show. The movie was comical and romantic but kinda lengthy and we were lethargic due to the lack of flow of blood. Been starting to stay up again these few nites. Ur niece is really cute but it would be better if she could talk. Hehe... My niece was admitted into the hospital. Heard she broke her arm cos she fell frm the bicycle. Didn't visit her at the hospital cos I only got home 3pm today. Get well soon and hope it doesn't hurt so much...
My turn to cam-whore while waiting for dinner. Wahaha... I noe my short bangs look so silly but I dun care...
Was at Dbl O yest to celebrate Christmas. Surprisingly, the crowd wasn't as happening as usual. Nevertheless, I had a wonderful time, esp with my special someone. (Hope Chris will send u the pics soon). Thanks for being so tolerant towards me. We were dead beat by 3am. It wasn't easy to hail a cab yest. We had to walk quite a distance to Penang Rd or something. The new heels gave me blisters once again.
Merry Christmas!
++ MarryMango at 7:56 PM.
Friday, December 22, 2006
Still alive
Been trapped inside my house for almost a week. Haha... Feels so good to have recovered. Dropped by the library yest but didn't manage to get my hands on any of Harlan Coben's new books. Cut my hair at one of the saloons at my market today (really too broke to go Toni & Guys). Jason went with me cos he wanted to interview the hairdressors for his Loreal project/competition. Been saying tat we wanna go somewhere hang out and chill. To think tat we met up at such an ulu place. Lol... Paiseh! Very sorry to those I have yet to meet up with (esp Carisse cos we have changed the dates so many times. Bet U r in Batam now. Enjoy yourself, gal! Catch up with u when u r back.). And CW, i die die also must meet u for Spaggedies b4 u fly off man! Haha...I am looking fwd to year 2007. 2006 has been such a bad year for me. Fell sick so many times. My results are disappointing. Relationship troubles etc etc... Nothing seem to have gone smoothly. Right now, I am even blogging using my bro's comp cos my monitor has been failing me. May 2007 be so so so much better for me as well as for everyone else...
++ MarryMango at 5:54 PM.
Monday, December 18, 2006
Feeling terrible
It's the 3rd day since i fell sick on Fri nite. (Must be due to standing in the hot sun during work last fri.) Yet I still have not recovered. I dun think my temperature has ever hit so high. It was 39.6°C when i saw the doc on sat. Was so worried that I have to be hospitalised. Luckily, the doc said not necessary as my fever was due to my throat infection. Now I am pretty certain that so long as my cough doesn't recover, this cycle will keep repeating itself. That's y I have been seeing doc every month. *sigh*Aren't those cough syrup and medicine supposed to make u drowsy? I do sleep extremely early like 9pm. But I'll still wake up in the middle of the nite. Not once, but like 3 or 4 times. I wish I could have a good nite sleep. Been feeling very cold, esp my limbs (hot inside my body though) that I wore a jacket. And sometimes I wouldn't even on the fan. If you think my room is damn hot even with a fan, then u can imagine how cold I was. With jacket and covering the blanket up to my neck still wasn't enough. I still felt very cold. I wished there's a jab that I could take and make me get well immed. I'm willing to face the needle rather than suffering like this whole day long.
These few days, I have been waking up to dry mouth and chapped lips. It was so horrible that my lips crack leaving blood stains on them. So I tried to drink loads of water whenever I woke up in the middle of the nite. Guess wat happened this morn? I vomited water! Not juz a little but quite a bit. Haiz... I seriously got no idea wat else I can do. Right now, I'm not even sure if I can recover by Christmas. I dun wanna spend Christmas lying in bed :(
I'm home alone now. My parents has gone to Suntec for the nusery exhibition. So sickening... Nobody to talk to me and there's nothing much I could do. Been eating mee suan, porridge and tau huay for the past few days. My appetite is real bad. For instance, this morn i only took a few mouthfuls of tau huay and left the rest for my Dad to finish. My throat hurts like hell (burning sensation even when I swallow my saliva). Haven looked at the mirror in wat felt like ages(which is a miracle). Think I'll scare myself or dun even recognise myself. I think I look horrendous. I really hope I can get well soon...
++ MarryMango at 11:22 AM.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
My stash of goods
Look at what I have gotten! Quite a few tops, jeans and skirt (Dun be so surprised, I do buy T-shirts once in awhile). Might not seem a lot to u but I blew almost 200 bucks already. However, I still think it's a rather good bargain. The original price of the jeans was 90, tops at 30 or 49. But I got the jeans at 49, tops at 15 or 19. Only one top still costs 36 after discount. Joey couldn't wake up early in the morn so she didn't join us. I think we covered almost all the Mng outlets in Orchard. Accompanied Dian to her dental appt at Mount E then we headed home already. Both of us were super tired and super broke! Haha...
Bumped into Valentina (my poly mate) at the sale. We haven seen each other for very long already. Needless to say, she wasn't surprised to bump into me there cos I'm a well-known Mng fan. Still rem abt 3 years back we went to the Mango sale together as well. We were having attachment at Deutsche Bank and took a train down to Raffles City from Shenton Way during lunch hour. Yes, we were that crazy even back then. Certain things have definitely changed though. For instance, the Mng outlet at Raffles City has already closed down and we r in diff Unis now. Nevertheless, I wun forget her. She's still as bubbly and fun to chat with.
My very belated birthday present from Dian cos she forgot to bring the other day when we met up. Thanks a lot, gal. The necklace is beautiful...
++ MarryMango at 7:46 PM.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Mango Sale Again
Yes, u heard (or rather read) me right. Mango sale is here once again. Was shopping yest around centrepoint and wanted to go into Mango. But they were closed, packing and preparing for the upcoming sale. I called up Dian immed and ta-dah her leave was approved today. So u can expect us to be there first thing tmr morn. Told Joey abt the sale today and she said she'll join us to go together cos her frenz are mostly working.Caught Saw3 already on Mon nite. It was a very impromptu thingy. Juz a call and we set off to watch the show at 2am in the morning. Lol... Thinking back, I think we were rather crazy and impulsive. The plot wasn't as good this time round. No wonder the reviews weren't tat fantastic and the show wasn't very popular. U can expect GROSS, GROSS and more GROSS. It was gruesome, much more disgusting and cruel than the previous 2.
Joey asked me to work for the actual French Fair next week. Pay is not as good (but still reasonable) and the working hours are longer. I guess it wouldn't hurt to have some income coming in, considering the rate that I'm spending. Haha... Totally forgot that I have to save for Mango sale. Luckily, I do have some back-up. And I should be getting my pay this Fri. Yeah!
Dunno y my nose bleeds nowadays. Today is the 2nd time already...
++ MarryMango at 3:14 PM.
Monday, December 11, 2006
Cold afternoon at IMM
Went IMM with my dad this afternoon. He went Giant while I walked around the other new shops. Bumped into Shu Zhen at the Body Shop. One of my sec sch frenz, classmate of Dian and a dance mate. She's been working there for almost a year already. Was supposed to be looking for gifts for 2 Js. Ended by buying a dress and eye shadow for myself. Haha... I noe i'm incorrigible. Couldn't help but buy when I see pretty things.
Those carts were having 20% off for a week which they called X'mas special. So i got this dress at $23.90 instead of the usual 29.90.
Glitter stick eyeshadow recommended by CW the other day at Vivo. But blue ran out of stock there...
A clearer pic of the eyeshadow from thefaceshop.com
Cleo juz arrived today. Gosh! Look at the stack piling up on my chair. I haven finish reading previous months yet. Anyway, tat one on the top right hand corner with a tough bod is calendar for 2007. Dun think I want it. It's up for grabs. Anybody wants it? Yufen? Lol...
++ MarryMango at 4:46 PM.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Black and White
Thanks
++ MarryMango at 1:31 AM.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Fun-filled Day
Went Raffles to work yest morning. It was to promote a French Fair, play some silly games with the ppl, take some pictures with them and give away free wine bags. The pics will be uploaded on www.sopexa.com.sg soon. The pay is pretty good so I dun really mind scouring for participants under the hot sun. It's quite tiring but I believe it's worth it. $120 for 3 days and each day only have to work for 2 hours. This job is introduced by Joey. She has loads of lobangs. We were gossiping on the phone last nite as well. (Psst... shall remain a secret whom we bitch abt). She kinda reminds me of Li Sze in the picture...
Me, Joey, Jerry and Nicholas (Dun we look as though we are graduating? Haha... I noe u must be saying we look stupid). Joey even said she felt like Miss World when the person was tying the ribbon around her. Lol...
Headed to Harbourfront to meet Cheng Wei after tat. We really had fun shopping. Yup we didn't really cover the entire place cos it was too huge. But we did try our best. Reminds me of the HK advertisement once again. Shop, eat, shop! Lol... I was really tired by the end of the day. Seriously in need of rest. Woke up at 8 in the morning and only retired to bed at 2 plus am. Even right now, my arms and feet are still aching. It doesn't help tat I'm having blisters frm wearing Joey's snickers while working. Thanks for lending me the snickers nevertheless, gal. Anyway, I got myself a pair of very girly shoes so I dun have to borrow from her anymore. Btw, cheer up CW. Dun get perturbed by someone who is almost non-existent =) I will be looking fwd to our next shopping trip at Orchard so that we can dine at Spaggedies. Hehe...
Taken during both day and nite
My satisfied purchases (I rem the Mng bag costs $60 but I only got it for $35. Or did i rem the price wrongly?). I love furry stuffs!
Dinner at Secret Recipe (I swear I must have its cheese cake one of these days)
I think this shop totally doesn't fit into Vivo. Spoils Vivo's image... (^_^)"
Beautiful scenary facing Sentosa
I tot the ladies on the left are dancing very weirdly. But in fact, they are playing some kind of instruments which the strings are linked to the top floor. The strings were like invisible in the day.
I simply adore this Christmas tree. It's full of bears. Wahaha... So tempted to pluck one down...
++ MarryMango at 11:37 AM.
Monday, December 04, 2006
It's FINALLY over!
Yes, it's finally over. A day that I have been anticipating for so long. Yet, I dunno whether to be happy or not. This is seriously the worst sem of my life. I know I have screwed up big time, esp my econ and genes papers. I really dun wish to see the same lecturers again next sem. Oh well, there's nothing I can do now. *Dreading 26th dec though when result will be out* Yingqi is right, at least we may still have a Merry Christmas b4 Doom Day.Did I mention that my bro has worked for approximately 2 months already? He's not exactly earning big bucks, just the average graduate kind of pay. But he gave my parents $500. EACH. That makes a cool total of $1000!!! It's considered quite a huge amount for monthly household allowance. Pressurizing for me when I start work in future. *sigh* (I need the money for shopping. Wahaha...)
Surprised that there are so many silent readers around. Referring to those who read my blog but yet do not leave a tag or chose to sms me instead. Even ppl whom I talk abt. Word-of-mouth is definitely a powerful marketing tool. It wun change a thing. I have no qualms bitching abt anyone and everyone under the sun. I may have edited the past entries but ppl would still have read the original entries. If you didn't do anything wrong, then y worry that I'll mention U on my blog?
I wanna watch Saw III! For once, I'm glad that i'm 21 already cos this time Saw is RA. Been crazy over Saw 1 & 2. Bet this time it wouldn't disappoint me as well. Anyway, I'm all geared up to go shopping and party. To my gal frenz, let's hit town one of these days! Looking fwd to going Vivo City with CW this wed. Can see that Vivo is really getting hot and hippy. It seems to be the fav hangout for my frenz. 3 people have asked me to go there already. Hmmm... Is Orchard going to be deserted then?
++ MarryMango at 9:57 PM.
