Wednesday, August 20, 2008
2nd Interview
Yup, the lunch with my manager which I mentioned in my last entry was indeed about conversion to perm once again. I was elated of cos. Been waiting for another opportunity like this for 3 months. Therefore, my case was submitted and another interview was arranged with my asst Director on this Fri.However, this time my manager warned me beforehand that the headcount might be for a new team - meaning they are creating a new team which specialises in handling failed trades. This is something that I hate doing! So she listed out my 3 choices:
1. Take the perm position and do something that I dun really like.
2. Continue as contract and do what I'm currently doing - process fixed income.
3. Look for a new job elsewhere.
Haiz... I'm in a dilemma now. I dun like any of the choices. I want to be a perm and continue what I am doing. I know the most appropriate thing to say to the asst Director is that I will accept the perm even if it is for failed trades. And that I should pretend to like doing it and all. But will I be happy at the end of the day? : (
++ MarryMango at 7:47 PM.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Manager's Birthday
It's my manager's birthday today. They have a tradition to celebrate everyone's birthday in the dept. But more ppl are taking leave on their birthday to avoid this celebration. Haha...
Birthday cakes are getting more and more special. These are muffins from TV-made-famous "Missy Muffins" across the road at Amoy. The previous time, they bought chiffon cakes from the MRT exchange and also stacked up like this for my Senior manager's birthday.
We put the plate of muffins on a trolley and snucked up behind her. Lol...
She initially forbade me to take photos of her. I promised not to post them on Facebook. But I secretly uploaded them here. Muahaha... Nobody in the office will know.
We still have the act of cutting cake even though it is not the real cake. It is so much easier with muffins. No need to cut for each of us. We just grab the flavors that we want and go.
I left the office at 6pm sharp today. Days like these are rare so must cherish them. Haha... Tmr lunching with this manager and my mentor. Dunno wat's up again but I dun have a good feeling this time round.
Anyway, I have booked the tickets for my Dec getaway. So exciting, going a few places but they are those which I have gone before. It's OK for me cos I can shop alot again and it's good to be familiar with the places mah. Gonna shop and eat to the max!
++ MarryMango at 7:17 PM.
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
Cheng Wei and I :)
Cheng Wei is back from Beijing! We met up for dinner at New York New York. It's my first time dining there. Food is quite good but I think it gets a bit gelat towards the end.
CW had roasted chicken with penne while I had crispy fish linguine. It's a change from my usual Carbonara. Might go back to try the Carbonara still. Haha...
She got me all these little gifts from Beijing. I love them so much. All my favorites - Small pouch and wristlet, Coach keychain, stickers and those diamonte handphone seals. I kept looking at them after I got home last night and also showed my mom. Hehe... Gals will always be gals :)
We walked around Raffles City after dinner. She showed me the sheep that she likes alot. Coincidentally, I have the sheep cushion which I puts in office. It's nice hanging out with U, gal. Thanks for accepting and treating me as a good fren, simply for who I am. I feel so at ease around you too. Hope that we will still meet up regularly even after sch starts for U :)
++ MarryMango at 8:50 PM.
Monday, August 04, 2008
World of Difference
You know when you were young, those adults always tell you studying is so much better than working - Enjoy it while you can. I can relate to that now. (My frenz who are still in sch, really, please do enjoy the freedom while you still can). In the past, I always can't wait to get out of school. Right now, as I see schools gearing up in preparation of the National Day's celebration, I wish I'm still part of it. I wish I could still slack the semester away, mugging only for brief moment during exam periods. I wish I still could lead the carefree life, without a worry in the world. I wish... Back to reality, I even have to work on public holidays now!
I have always proclaim that I have no stress in life. Little did I realise that age is catching up with me and more white hairs are popping up. My eyes are also getting worse thanks to the dual-screen at work. I have to admit it's taking a toll on me. No longer able to knock off on time. I feel the heavy responsibility of each and every trade (as they are at least a few millions). Just last week, during my leave period, a failed trade resulted in losses and having to compensate client a few thousands. I can't deny that I got nothing to do with it. Lucky thing is the claim will be paid by the company and not out of my own pocket. Otherwise, I would be a bankrupt already. It's as though I'm standing on tenterhooks everyday. I could not stop thinking and worrying about my trades even when I'm on vacation. It's like if something bad happens, my head will roll...
But I am proud of the work that I'm doing. This goes without saying. Afterall, I'm dealing with the nation's funds. I assist in generating wealth for the country. I guess the vast amount of money involved scares me a little. It would help if Boss could understand as well and stop throwing me more and more endless jobs. One of my coll said they wouldn't throw me so many things if they dun trust me. However, there is a limit to everyone's capability. One person alone cannot handled so many things what. And I wonder as I take on more of my colls' workload, what are they left to do?
When I casually mentioned that I want to change job, the people around me will say it's not easy getting into my company so I should not give up so easily. I suppose it's the same everywhere U go. I just find my current company structure and policies particularly rigid. To me, recognition plays an important role too. I dun wanna slog my life away w/o appreciation. Like how I have been complaining: I dun get OT pay (cos HR deems my pay beyond that level) nor meal and cab claims like others. The only thing that keeps me going is the drive to learn as much as I can and the valuable experience that I will reap. I believe it will serve me well in future.
I have always proclaim that I have no stress in life. Little did I realise that age is catching up with me and more white hairs are popping up. My eyes are also getting worse thanks to the dual-screen at work. I have to admit it's taking a toll on me. No longer able to knock off on time. I feel the heavy responsibility of each and every trade (as they are at least a few millions). Just last week, during my leave period, a failed trade resulted in losses and having to compensate client a few thousands. I can't deny that I got nothing to do with it. Lucky thing is the claim will be paid by the company and not out of my own pocket. Otherwise, I would be a bankrupt already. It's as though I'm standing on tenterhooks everyday. I could not stop thinking and worrying about my trades even when I'm on vacation. It's like if something bad happens, my head will roll...
But I am proud of the work that I'm doing. This goes without saying. Afterall, I'm dealing with the nation's funds. I assist in generating wealth for the country. I guess the vast amount of money involved scares me a little. It would help if Boss could understand as well and stop throwing me more and more endless jobs. One of my coll said they wouldn't throw me so many things if they dun trust me. However, there is a limit to everyone's capability. One person alone cannot handled so many things what. And I wonder as I take on more of my colls' workload, what are they left to do?
When I casually mentioned that I want to change job, the people around me will say it's not easy getting into my company so I should not give up so easily. I suppose it's the same everywhere U go. I just find my current company structure and policies particularly rigid. To me, recognition plays an important role too. I dun wanna slog my life away w/o appreciation. Like how I have been complaining: I dun get OT pay (cos HR deems my pay beyond that level) nor meal and cab claims like others. The only thing that keeps me going is the drive to learn as much as I can and the valuable experience that I will reap. I believe it will serve me well in future.
Should I love or hate my job?
It's a love-hate relationship.
++ MarryMango at 9:04 PM.
