Sunday, June 08, 2008
Retail Therapy and Movie
Went shopping with Dian today. It's been months since I last saw her. She has quit her last job and just found another job this week. It's at International Plaza which is just opposite my office building! This means that I got myself another lunch buddy. Haha... She even suggested going home together but I knock off at 6 while she gets off at 5.30pm though. Arghh... Why all my frenz seem to get off work earlier than me even though we start at the same time? But nvm it's still convenient for us to go shopping together after work. As expected, she suggested taking half day leave for the upcoming Mango sale. :) Best pals can read each other's mind. We bought a truckload of stuffs as usual. I was spending like there was no tomorrow, buying for the sake of buying. Need to go back to collect some stuff that I have ordered (so very Mango me. Haha...)Then, I went for a movie at night. Something that I have been wanting to watch. Luckily, they are still screening this at the cinemas.
Sidetrack a bit... Hey mate, guess wat? I found something more saddening than your "change of heart" theory. 2 people in love doesn't mean that they can stay together either. There are always various reasons I guess. Communication is certainly important in a relationship. To me, so are promises. Those close to me will know that I hate ppl breaking promises. No more going JB for shopping, eating and movie. No more doing simple things together even though it was just the 2 of us. I just realised that since Oct 26 last year, I have forgotten that what I really want is to be happy in life. Cos I thought that I would naturally be happy. I must start reminding myself once again...
The best thing that came out of this is that I knew for once that I have given my best. I'm sorry, Jon and Ralph. If you are still reading this, I'm really sorry to admit that I didn't give my best in the past and took both of you for granted. Come to think of it, I'm surprised that you guys didn't give up on me much earlier and it dragged on for some years. I think you know what I mean. Now I know it's nv a good feeling for someone to be taken for granted. And I agree it's for the better that you let go after I left for HK. Cherish ur gf, Ralph!
Ppl have asked why I haven't change my msn pic and relationship status. Cos I feel like I'm still in a daze right now. I want to come to terms with it at my own pace and when I change them, it will be for good. I dun wish to be rushed into something. All the pics, bear and gifts on my tabletop are still untouched cos I dun need my parent's additional questioning especially at this moment. My achievement this time round is that I didn't shed a tear. Cos I won't allow myself to anymore. Even though I was close to tears on Thursday afternoon, I reminded myself to be professional as I pride myself for not bringing emotions to work.
I'm glad I still have my frenz with me. Now I know why he values his frenz so much. A pity I might have lost some. Kudos to those who are still around. Thank you so much for being there for me. Nobody said that it's going to be easy but I'm sure I can get past this. It's just another stage in life. I feel like going on another getaway like HK last year. Mayb I'll go on leave soon...
It's close to 4am now and I wonder why I'm not feeling tired despite being out the entire day. I haven't stayed up till so late for the longest time. Many thoughts have ran through my mind. It's been a long while since I laid in bed and can't get to sleep. However, I'm feeling a tad hungry. Blame myself for eating so little for dinner. No appetite bah...
This blog was set up for a reason. Still rem doing up this blog with some help from his sis and he edited the graphics for me. It's slightly more than 2 years old now. I feel as though I have matured by 10 years though. Learnt so much and I believe there are more to go. Perhaps now it's time to close down for another reason.
*Thanks*
++ MarryMango at 2:06 AM.
