Sunday, December 31, 2006
Last day of 2006
Then... Happy New Year!
Eugene was asking me why I ain't out. He tot I was kidding abt staying home. Lol... Guess wat was the reply of my last sentence? (Screw him? Haha... No lah that wasn't wat i said.)
Thinking back my other years of New Year (since millenium), I have spent them at Orchard, the beach, Metropole, Gotham Penthouse and Marina Mandarin. For once, I have decided to spend it at home. Pathetic? Haa... I only feel calm and rational now. I noe I'm not ready to face the world of happy couples out there. So here I am, healing my heart, picking up the broken pieces... Was reading Xiaxue's blog the other day abt how Christmas is overrated. I tot that it was juz her eating sour grapes cos her bf is far away in Texas or something. Right now, it's my turn to say that New Year countdown is overrated. Wat's the whole point of ushering in a new year with total strangers?
Been pondering over many things. Gotta say I applaud myself for reaching such a decision. Feeling slightly happy in fact, that I could think in such a way. I dun need this trip down the memory lane. Am I one to be defeated so easily? I certainly dun think so. Wat happened to the happy-go-lucky Linda that my frenz used to know me as? I must definitely revert back to the old me. U used to ask me whether I meant it when I say I wish we nv met. Yes, now i can safely say that I seriously wish WE nv knew each other. Dun get me wrong, I'm grateful for all that U have done for me. But it would have been better if we didn't noe each other and landed in this state. And U used to ask me how come I nv mention U in my blog. Now, I talk abt u so much but from such a different angle that I bet you wouldn't like. Certainly, many things have changed within the span of few days or weeks. Dun worry, I'll definitely survive w/o U. U reinforce the phrase that 'No one is indispensible in this world' (even in the non-working region). U reminded me once again that there's no such thing as 'forever'...
To U: Please fuck off from my life if U cannot be the one to bring me happiness. I dun need u lurking around like a shadow, dropping me a few sms everyday. At the end of it all, U still aren't there for me. I would like to resume my life from b4 I met U. Thanks..
To all my frenz out there: Thanks for all the concern. Yup, it's not the end of the world. Dun worry, I wun give up on myself. Life does go on...
And to the One up there, please erase my memories at the stroke of midnight. I would do my part by erasing traces of U too. 2007 is a new beginning...
++ MarryMango at 8:06 PM.
