Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Remembrance of a Dead Love
It's true that people only learn to cherish only after the person is gone. People used to tell me that I have such a sweet and loving boyfriend. Back then, I juz tot that it was normal and this is wat a bf ought to be. In a way, he was the reason that this blog was started. I simply needed an outlet where I can juz rant on and on after having no one to turn to.It started out at Citi. It wasn't the sort of whirlwind romance. The first time we spoke was when he called me (I was at 31st floor while he was at 14th) to take down a sales. (Citi has a policy where u cannot steal a coll's sales if he/she had contacted the customer first). We started smiling then making small talks whenever we see each other around. Got together officially on Christmas's eve. That was in year 2003. Our 6-yr age gap wasn't an issue.
Colls and frenz said we look very compaitable together. He displayed our pic on his office's desk while I had our pic in my wallet etc. We had couple phones, couple everything like earrings, rings. We have seen each other's family and relatives, from the youngest to the oldest. Both our parents seem to think that we will really get married. His dad said he hopes to see us married and advised him not to get a car and saved up for a house instead when he first wanted to get that Lancer. My mom always cooked his fav dishes when he's over for dinner (which is very often). My dad could even trust his car with him but not me! Could you believe this?
He was indeed sweet. I could still rem vividly the times when he took a cab down to Shenton Way frm Millenia during lunchtime to give me a box of Sins choc (a reward for my Distinctions in Poly), how he rented a car on Valentine and surprised me by fetching me in sch. Imagine I was walking towards Dover MRT, intending to meet him there and suddenly a car stopped in front of me. He would also buy Long John and brought it to NUS when he heard that I did not have lunch. He also dropped by my house secretly (when I was not home, my dad opened the door for him of cos) and hid some snacks or tidbits inside my cupboard such that I would find those surprises after I got home. My most exorbitant present has got to be Zavier. It costs around 1k, including the cage and all. No question abt it, he bought it on the spot when I said I wanted the cute puppy.
He was never a cause for worry. He seldom went out with his guy frenz, not to mention gals. He nv minded me meeting my guy frenz cos he's a very confident guy. He had no reason not to be cos he does have all the qualities that gals would yearn for. But somehow, U will tend to think that the person wouldn't leave u no matter wat after awhile. Overconfidence might not be a good thing though. Taking a person for granted is even worse... We often spent our time at the beach, movie or shopping. But it's always juz the 2 of us. He nv like to join my frenz cos he can't speak Chinese for nuts.
As they say, when a man climbs up the corporate ladder, he got more money but dunno where to spend. He started hanging out very often at Balaclava and Thumper after work. He would turn up at my doorstep, drunk to the point where he can't even speak a proper sentence. He also started his Masters then. Would u believe that I would take the last train to Pasir Ris (considering that I stay in Jurong), help him wash car, accompany him study then drive myself home at 4 am? I still couldn't believe I would ever do such a thing. But I did. I guess Love really can make us do the unthinkable...
Despite those mentioned above, we didn't manage to stay together after all which brings us bk to the point where "Life is really unpredictable". Dun take a person for granted. Appreciate and cherish him/her for every little thing.
++ MarryMango at 2:43 PM.
