*Mango Lover*

Monday, April 23, 2007

Irony

U r the main reason which prompted me to apply for the exchange program. Yet, U r the only one who ask me not to go after I got enrolled into CUHK. Wat an irony! U made me feel so worthless a few months back. For awhile, I lost myself. I tot that all the faults lie with me and I couldn't stop blaming myself. I tot that I'm such a failure and very detestable. After tat, I slowly realised that the problem doesn't lie with me. The issue lies with U - ur so-called "wanna sort out ur feelings". Guys who say that only want more options in their lives. In fact, I do feel uncomfortable with ur sudden change of mind recently. It's not that I think bad of U but U have made me put on my guards against men. I said U have ulterior motive --> Actually this applies to all men in general. Anyway, there are others who are able to truly appreciate me for who I am. U asked if we'll ever meet again? I dun see the need to. Hopefully, U will be at the very back or even out of my mind by the time I got bk frm HK...

Read F's blog last nite. He was talking abt finding out one's destiny. There he goes again: Spiritual awareness being the highest level, blah, blah, blah... -_-" He asked me if I noe my destiny. I said it's not for me to noe, it's for me to find out. He said he used to think that way but now he wants more. I told him "Sometimes simplicity is a beauty of life" which is very true I think. The more U think, the more things U want. And when U can't achieve them, U will be very unhappy. I guess this is a major change in me. I used to think so much, it's nv-ending lah. Dun think so much, it's definitely better.

Was going to sleep around 2am last nite then Marcus nudged me on MSN. Said he's sian, cannot sleep. So long nv chat with him alr cos of some bitch as U all noe. He called me a SPG, I say I'm not interested in ang mohs lah. He urged me to join Facebook but I think Friendster is more than enough lah. Dun need so many accounts. We exchanged our notes for APB and I met him briefly b4 the paper this morn. He offered me *** but I'm quitting lah! See I'm so guai. Haha... After the exam, he asked where i'm heading. I said I'm going home lah. He also noe me very well, can predict wat i'm up to --> Go home to do wat I do best. SLEEP! Weather is super nice for sleeping now...

Glad that I have managed to finish (more or less) my papers on time so far. Previous sems I have always been unable to finish questions which amount to 20-40 marks. 1 more SCM paper left on Fri...

p/S: Men are a juz a bunch of ingrates. Dunno how to appreciate gals. My heart goes out to U, gal. Forget abt this kind of heartless guy lah. Screw him man, fuck him upside down. Dun bother to still be nice to this type of ppl. And pls dun go drinking alone anymore. We can go club after my exam ends this week...

++ MarryMango at 2:25 PM.